I have this other nonsense thing on my bucket list, which is to introduce myself to a total stranger. No friendship coming out of it or anything like that. Just walk up to a total stranger, introduce myself and make the person feel like an important part of my day.
So I found this cute little girl, very excited about life. She was with her aunt and I walked up to them, said hello and asked for her name. She immediately jumped into my arms and wrapped her arms round my neck. Children are simply amazing right! Started conversing with her aunt and within 30 seconds, the vivacious bundle in my arms planted four kisses on my cheek in quick successions like she had known me all 3 years of her life. I found myself hugging her tight and saying ‘I love you too’. I have a feeling she would forget all about me within the next 1 minute, lolol! But I will definitely not forget her anytime soon.
So, there is this guy at work, a supervisor, not one of us mere mortals. He minds his own business, doesn’t go around gisting with this one and that one, and worse, he carries on with this air of ‘I get wife for house, don’t get it twisted’. With cute little girls, introducing myself is easy-peasy, but adult-male…a totally different kettle of fish. Plus I definitely don’t make friends with people that have built a fortress of force field around themselves. So, this is going well out of my comfort zone. Plus with the whole ‘oga‘ thing and his attitude…if I walk up to him and he shuts me down…I won’t be able to recover o and there will be trouble in paradise.
Most days that I go to work in the last four weeks, I’ll tell myself today is the day I’ll do it. But it always, always never ends up being the day. I will always find an excuse, I either convince myself his force field is extra high that day or he looks really busy or something equally cowardly and I’ll tell myself the wise thing to do will be to respect myself and face my face. There was a day I kept psyching myself to do the deed, and successfully got myself to head in his direction only to take a detour when I almost got there…eeeeshh…you see ehn, rejection isn’t good for my skin tone. And all the scenarios that kept playing out in my head ended with him shutting me down…and he sorta looks fearsome too *in my own defense*
Couple of days ago, I definitely didn’t plan to do it that day. But it happened that he was around and it was weekend, few people on the work floor. If he shuts me down, few people will witness the downfall of somebori. So I figured, what better day to get this over with right. So on my break, I walked up to him and…
Me: “Hello” He turned in his seat to face me.
Me: “Please do you have a minute?” He sat forward and gave me his full attention.
Yasssss! score one for Gatlinmay!
Me: “So I just want to introduce myself to you, my name is ******, I’m with ***** account over there”.
He positively looked confused. The look on his face seem to mean ‘Who is the crazo and what is the point of all the story’. At least that’s what I thought the look meant. So, I knew I had to explain myself.
Me: “Okay, I have this things on my bucket list, I am supposed to do stuff I don’t normally do, this time introduce myself to a total stranger, I am very new here and you are a supervisor which makes it all the more scarier for me”
And then he gave me a beam of a smile, nodding with understanding. *aaawwww, isn’t he the sweetest* #eyescrossed
Me: “What’s your name”?
Him: *says his name* “Nice to meet you”, reached out to shake my hand.
Me: “Nice to meet you too and thanks!”
And with that I sashayed back to my desk feeling like I just kicked a rhino in the nuts and got away with it. *Fireworks going off*
Funny, I was supposed to do this to make the other person feel awesome yet I was the one who ended up with the awesome feeling. On the flip side though, he might have also felt awesome but I didn’t ask so I might never know. I realized that the most amazing things we can do are the scariest for us. And really, my fear of failure was all in my head.
We can only fail as many times as we never tried.
“Then He said to the man, ‘Stretch out your hand’, he stretched it out and it was restored to normal” Matt 12:13
When Jesus gave this guy the instruction, it was for the guy to do something that was actually impossible. He could have said ‘Oh, actually, that hand doesn’t work, it won’t stretch out’ But he didn’t…he chose to agree with Jesus that it could be done and that was when the miracle happened! It got me thinking about all the plans on paper, the sketches of amazing designs, the blueprints that can change communication systems, the promises to self, the equations that can create alternate sources of power…etc, that never got to see the light of day, simply because of fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of losing, fear of getting shut down, fear of being told it’s not good enough. So what if we are rejected? Like Taylor Swift said, shake it off. And try again.